I'm Sorry

I believe I owe you an apology so here goes:
I’m sorry for always trying to help you…almost like playing the role of your mother instead of fulfilling your needs like a girlfriend should
I’m sorry for trying to care for you like a Mother caring for her child
I’m sorry for feeling the need to help….wishing constantly that there was something I can do to make all your troubles/worries go away
I’m sorry for feeling responsible for all your mistakes and always working hard to relieve you of any additional stress that comes along with taking care of your responsibilities
I’m sorry for taking care of your obligations…thinking that I’m being supportive
I’m sorry for feeling neglected and unwanted when I was supposed to gather my own strength, ignoring my own needs to be there for you when you needed me
I’m sorry for thinking you didn’t care for me at all..…silly me ;)
I’m sorry for not being the expressive kind that finds it easy to open up and share how much I was hurting to the core
I’m sorry for the breakdown of our relationship and marriage that has died before it was given a chance to live.  It seems like its birth was its demise.
I’m sorry for feeling helpless without admitting that there was something I could have really done to change/make things better
I’m sorry for turning things on you when I was feeling very down, insecure, and weak
I’m sorry for liking the pain I feel when I say/do things to make you leave…it’s almost like an intoxicated addiction.  I must say that I loved the hurt because it made me feel tough
I’m sorry for giving up on our marriage the moment it was borne instead of nurturing it…I killed it because I thought it was the end instead of the beginning