I did it for the KIDS – Part 1

I remembered when you said we are ‘expecting;’ at first I was excited and very proud because I was gonna live my life… for the kids

I remembered that blessed day of watching life unfolded right in front my eyes. It took my breath away and I discovered a new Love.

I thought God has shown me a sign because the first moment I held her and she looked at me, it’s almost like Love at first sight

I made a pledge in that very moment to never leave her side but I know deep inside I wasn’t ready for all this.  Say what?  Family?  Who?.....yeah, but I did it for the kids

My Moms & Pops abandoned me so I was determined to make that sacrifice…. for the love of the kids

I just wanted to live my life, enjoy it to the fullest while I’m still alive….but I did it for the kids

My life changed so drastically; almost like everything changed overnight….but I did it for the kids

I wasn’t ready to share my heart, my personal space or my life..…but I did it for the kids

I felt so bounded, almost as if I couldn’t move at times that I started questioning where did my freedom go?......................but yeah, I did it for the kids

I was always high on mixed emotions that took away my peace, confusion constantly running through my veins………..…but I did it for the kids

Everything was consuming my joy, I felt like I was been pushed farther and farther away by all this……………………….but I did it for the kids

At times I wondered if they were really mines because now I had a hard time differentiating what’s real and what’s not…but I hung in there for the kids

So many questions started to surface, when I look at the man in the mirror all I saw was a big question mark, I couldn’t see his face….but I did it for the kids

I became so unhappy but I still hung in there, even if it’s by a thread…because I’m doing it for the kids

Now the thread is broken…..but guess what? I did it for the kids